YES I AM

Yes,
I am
the guilty party
My hands
are stained
with his blood

Yes, I am
the whore you're wanting
Tell me how it feels
to taste
your own affliction
Well, now you know

Yes, I
am
the innocent,
the masochist,
the knowledge
and the nonsense
that you've been feeding on

Yes, I am
turning
in a masquerade
Dancing like
no one's watching
Risking way too much

Yes,
I am
weak in nature
and I swallow
everything whole

Yes,
I am
a complication
a deed undone
a wrong road taken

Yes,
I am
the guilty one...

2005

Doloré (for those that don't know this is the Spanish word for pain)

All this pain inside
Never fades
Just turns
darker shades of grey

A stain
that always seems
to shame

a love
that blossoms
to nothing more
than a bud

A tear
that's stained
with your blood

A life that
has
no meaning

2004

Die to Live

A blueness fell over me
as I realized
I must die
before I begin to live

Everything slows up
dries up within
It all decayed

But maybe
it's time
to just get rid
of all I have
and all that's been
and start over again

I soon
will remember
what it was like
to spread my wings

And I'll soon
know how
to take flight
Me and my horizon in view

Just go
and watch that light
until it fades
then take up again
in the day
every time I'll find my strength
I'll find my strength
You can't take that away

2004

Empty City (A Poem About Las Vegas)

Hallowed, empty faces
they stare,
sucking the life from you
with the first word
you let escape
just to appease them
They'll take you in
and you'll feel like you've
been
thrown out
Gotta catch the fever of
"Don't let nobody in."
Burnt out, shot up, laid down
It's cold, in a city so warm

2005

Needs A Title...

You fool--
you jump
when she says jump
and I wonder how high--
how far can you fall
'till you cannot safely tumble on the ground anymore
once you reach bottom?

You still burn a flame for her
I can see it in your eyes
But you say you're better apart

Do you believe your words
or are they those little white lies
those things that we tell ourselves
so we don't fall into someones arms
and God forbid,
LOVE

2006

Think of Me

Welcome to my nightmare
in here I cannot see

Your world so cool and serene
is somewhere
I will never be

You say you don't
know how someone
could cry
could hurt
constant
because you've never felt it

You think you're above
everyone
who isn't a perfect like you

Maybe someday
you'll experience pain
and I hope
you'll think of me

2005